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October 16 Consolidating my blogs into one easy URLI've decided (not that i think anyone reads this thing but hey, maybe in a few years time on a rainy december day...) that since a) i'm not updating this thing any more, b) no-one is reading it (the two may be connected i accept), and c) i have at least two other perfectly suitable blog-like webpages of my own which - what's more - have some better features (mentioning no sites myspace or snazzy features the music player omg how cool is it?!? in particular in relation to this last point), I'm gonna let this Space become deceased, ex-blog, that has kicked the bucket and gone to meet its maker hang on what?! - insert your own dead parrot references here to taste. I must admit to being a bit of a 'Promiscuous Girl', as Nelly Furtado whines every 5 minutes on Radio 1, at least when it comes to blogging (in any other sense, hardly), and i must return to my first love and the security it offers. Well...i'll still keep my fling going with MySpace /raquelita_jovencita, but i think it is nothing more than harmless flirtation at the moment, so that's fine. I was just cruelly using Bebo to get pictures, you see. Ahaha, what a fickle navegante I am. *cackle*
Hmm. This post has taken a turn for the worse i think, or at least slightly surreal, what with me running with the blogging infidelity idea for a little longer than is normal. I'm not bitter or anything...whatever gave you that impression?
So anyway, if you really wanna know from whence I came and that to which I return bringing peace offerings of long updates and lavishing marquee-laden posts and sultry new usericons, just drop me a line and ask for the address of my other sites.
So long, farewell, auf wiedersehen goodbye... *waves hankie*
(i know i could have said all of that in one sentence, but as someone once said to me, brevity was never my forte. More is more, you betta believe it honey). August 21 Mis abuelitosMy grandmother is very weird. Well, I had to get it from somewhere. Although I'll lay odds my grandfather had something to do with it too, but I'll leave him out of this for a moment as I'm trying to get round to what she said to me on the phone on Thursday:
Me: ...so then I found out I got three As, so I've got into the University I want...
Grandma Mim: *interrupts* Ooh, so you're not a member of the AA!! *thinks* Or...you're a triple A battery!! *triumphant tone* That's it!
Me: Right, Granma, ok...
Mind you, at least she was vaguely trying to be funny - my grandad just did his usual lecture on how i must go and work at the British Consul in Shanghai and/or Alicante, and reminded me in his 'Now you listen here my lad'-Royal-Air-Force voice that China is becoming more and more important in terms of business and I could get several highly-paid jobs translating for companies trading in the far East, couldn't I? I tried to protest futilely that I wasn't interested in that kind of job but I soon gave up, remembering that disagreeing with him is just a waste of time and that it's far easier to do non-commital 'maybe's and 'you never know's. It lets him think he is guiding my career path, even if he isn't, and after all he hasn't succeeded in doing the same with his 3 sons. Well, i guess I'd be disappointed if my son got the world record for paper aeroplane throwing. Young people of today, eh? (Heh - it still amuses me that that was the title of one of my AS Spanish papers...) August 10 Thorn in the fleshI pretend that you're already mine and my heart ain't breaking every time
I look into your eyes
If only...i could get thru this
God, God, gotta help me get thru this --------------------------------------------
You know how when you get hurt sometimes, you can have a quite deep wound for a while which is really quite painful, and it is the focus of your attention, because of the pain, basically constantly, however much you try and forget about it? After a while it begins to hurt less, as the wound begns to close up and/or heal and/or scab over (urrrgh...scabs), and it probably still hurts, but you notice it slightly less, although of course you don't notice that you are noticing it less, so it still seems like it's painful and stuff. But it does come to your attention less, and gradually you begin to forget about it as it heals and doesn't bother you so much.
Then you have to go and bump into something again, or get poked wherever the wound is, JUST at that stage where you think it's almost healed. You're nearly there, and then the wound is reopened, which, if possible, hurts even more (perhaps by contrast to it not hurting anymore). Sometimes, and what is worse, that wound wasn't completely cleaned out and tidied up before it started to clot etc., so when it's reopened you find yourself needing to go the whole hog and wash out the wound again, so all the un-sorted out bits of grit and other unhealthy stuff is removed. This is also excruciating due to the undoing of previously settled flesh, or whatever you'd call it. So you are back to square one, trying not to think about it all the time, but failing most of the time, cos of the fresh pain that has been caused by re-opening the wound. Joy of joys, you must once more resort to mental avoidance tactics, like anything that is more painful, pleasurable or generally worthy of attention than that wound. Thank God i had work today, and things to do, or I would have been thinking about the wound and moping about it more than now, and i'm not excactly grinning and bearing it now. You see, i did collide with Something again today, and it has brought it all back. Owww. --------
Apologies for the angst. (Ab)normal service will resume shortly.
Ooooh - I have just worked out which film star a guy i met on camp looks like. it's been bugging me for aaaaages. No wonder I found Heath Ledger in 10 things I hate about you so attractive, he's the spitting image of James. LOL. Gotta love those locks and those freckles. Yeah baby. August 09 It's good to be backThis is a little late notice but hi, I'm back, from my absenteeism from this site  and from my week's holiday in Cumbria (big up the St.Bees!) I had a wonderful time with some amazing wonderful beautiful people, and i wish i could live there permanently...almost. The weather was not great - only really sunny on one day (Thurs?) and i managed to get what was subsequently quite painful sunburn on that day - but the music and spiritual side and all, a little bit of heaven on earth, like going home for me in some ways. Hilarious comedy performed by the usual suspects, and then there was Hunt the spy...i may update in dribs and drabs about various memorable aspects, but there are many so don't count on it. DIDN'T lose my ticket on the train, but I missed my connection at Carlisle on the way back due to, i hear, sheep on the line (brilliant! Best excuse I've heard) and having to take a rail replacement bus, but this just gave me more time with my new St. bees buddies and my roommate especially, and an opportunity to view the wonderful Cumbrian wind turbines (i have a thing about them, ok?) and coast from a slightly different angle.So: I am back. I met up with me old mucker Josephine and her other half ;-) in the cafe yesterday, which was, as she always says about her meetings with Adam dearest, 'nice'. Aww, bless, they are so cute when they are together, and she didn't need to tell me how happy she was, i got that from the way she was grinning from ear to ear. Lucky Jojo :D. The boyf was a bit quiet, and i was a bit 'aaargh, must keep conversation going' but i must learn to remember that not everyone talks or wants to talk as much as me. (No tittering at the back!) Right, next update should be on today, a.k.a. the start of the new job :-s :D Watch this space. No, this --->. :-p July 12 YAY!I GOT THE JOB!!!:D I start on 9th August. They FINALLY told me yes. But hey. Better late than never, as they say, although not many people mean it. July 03 A tribute to a year and a day agoI present:
The facts from the video that accompanied Travis at Live 8 - shame on you BBC for not showing them!!! - Every year we spend $4 billion on replica [football] shirts -$27 billion on making ourselves look good [makeup, beauty products, as opposed to...] -$45 billion on fashion accesories -$55 billion on denim -$40 billion on getting fit -$50 billion on weight-loss programmes -$40 billion on sneakers (aka trainers - i am aware these are American stats, but they give an idea of the scale of this absurd situation) -We spend $46 billion on sporting goods -$600 billion on vacations -$300 billion on alcohol -$40 billion on music sales [guilty as charged on this one at the very least) -YET $50 billion a year could save 50,000 lives a day! [who's with me in saying we should disband weight watchers et al for a year for a greater cause, and instead of forcing down Slimfast shakes or summat just think of Birhan Woldu every time we get the urge to splurge?]
As for third world debt - i think Ms Dynamite encompasses the sheer stupidity of the whole situation:
"We, as a nation [the UK], have robbed, killed, stolen and tortured the third world for centuries. If there is a debt to be paid, surley we're the ones that owe it." Thankfully now not such a problem for the 18 poorest countries but we need to do more!
CLICK HERE FOR ME - AT LEAST ONE OF THEM - AND MAKE A CHANGE. Post me a comment to say you have. What have you done today to make you feel proud? It's never too late to try...
http://www.makepovertyhistory.org/
http://www.christianaid.org.uk/campaign/ http://www.comicrelief.com/ http://www.data.org/ http://www.hopehiv.org/ http://www.jubileedebtcampaign.org.uk/ http://www.oxfam.org.uk/ http://www.tearfund.org/ http://www.tht.org.uk/ (Terrence Higgins trust) http://www.tjm.org.uk/ (the Trade Justice Movement) http://www.traidcraft.co.uk/ http://www.unicef.org.uk/ http://www.worldvision.org.uk/ http://www.wateraid.org/ and finally
http://www.thehungersite.com/ and its sister sites for the rainforest, education, cancer, health care. CLICK EACH DAY ON THESE - I do, it takes less than a minute each 24 hours and you can make a difference by telling people about it too. Thank you. June 28 school's out forever!!¡¡¡HE TERMINADO!!!
 J'AI FINI!!!  Heute ich habe Zeit!!! Xianzai wo bu shi xuesheng!!!  <marquee>YAY!!!!</marquee>
Now i have to work out what to do with myself for a month :-s I'm sure i can find one or two things to sort out
 And - i have shorter hair! *shock* How am I sposed to wear it for the ball now???? I dunno. To straighten or not (yes, i now have straighteners!!!) --> yes - BALL ON FRIDAY!!! *pretty shinyness squeeee*
Happeyness :D
(as you may have guessed, i ahve just dicsovered the emoticons ;-)) June 19 Ay, ¡Qué irritante!STUPID Liverpool John Moores University . All that effort taken in applying there - getting the course put on UCAS, visiting etc - and now what do they do? Yes, they cancel the course. Great! So i have no insurance course. Am hoping i just get enough to go to my first chouce so it won't be an issue, cos it's really quite difficult to find anywhere doing spanish and chinese. May have to go back to manchester, but that relies on me getting B in geography, an achievement i am by no means certain about obtaining.
Anyway, should continue getting back into spanish ready for the exam at 1 o'clock. Qué yo tenga suerte después de esta noticia... June 12 I like this quiz - tis differentI am a Christian. Romantic. Pragmatic. Not who you think I am - not as boring, not as confident, not as extrovert, not as open, not as young, not as innocent, not as bothered as i appear. I want to live the most amazing and challenging life God wants me to live (just like Louisa! Thanx mate!). I want to serve people and make the world a better place. I wish I could stop thinking about him/exams were over now I hate bitchiness,dishonesty, prejudice and selfishness. And on bad days capitalism. I love life, sunshine, languages and spanish peach juice I miss being young and carefree, having free time, going to school and Leamington Spa I fear losing my parents/heights I hear the radio, the tap of my fingers on the keyboard and the quiet rush of the computer's fan I wonder if i will ever meet someone I regret not telling people how i feel, and wasting time in so many ways. Messing up Bridges. I am not doing enough Geography revision! I dance alone in my room, to the radio I sing all the time - often delirious? I cry very rarely. I make no sense in english, but sometimes in spanish I write very long blog/lj entries! I confuse myself and other people, often, and in at least three languages. I need to go to bed/revise weathering I should pray more, eat less and get over several things. I start my new job/life/gap year in July/August, and University next september. I finish exams soon. Gracias a Dios. June 07 La GeografíaRight: i am gonna learn this tonight if it kills me. Well, no, cos there'd be no point learning it just to die... but you get the gist. Rachel's fascinating human geography facts The growth of World Population 1850 AD - 1.2 billion ---> 100 years later it had doubled: 1950 AD - 2.5 billion ---> 40 years later it had more than doubled: 1990 AD - 5.3 billion (sense a pattern here? Yes, it's exponential growth!!!) AND - in october 1999 (ish) the 6 billionth person on the planet was born...who was apparently chinese. There is a one in 5 chance of picking someone from China because it's population is around 1.2 billion on its own, and the world's population in 2002 (my latest data) was at 6.3 billion! Blimey. By 2010, the population of the LEDW (less economically developed world) is expected to have exceeded that of the MEDW (rich countries) by five times. TOTAL FERTILITY RATE: the number of children a woman is expected to have during her lifetime, based on current birth rates. The world average is currently 3.1 - more than the 2.1 that is required for maintaining the population at the same level. This is part of the reason why the world's pop is growing and has been for a long time. VERY interesting fact related to this - i knew that improving the education and (therefore) the status of women in society/ies made a bit of a difference to birth rates, i.e. makes em drop (more time studying/in better job = having fewer children later), but i didn't realize it made THIS much of a difference: In brazil, the total fertility rate for women who have secondary education is 2.5 - not bad for a developing country. However - this is what shocked me - the average for those who have NOT gone to secondary school is SIX POINT FIVE!!!! ON AVERAGE! I mean - that means it's NORMAL to have SIX! There are gonna be a significant amount who have seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven kids! That's amazing! poor them. Yes, so that's my big fact of the day. Some more here for dessert: There are 62 countries in the world (out of 200+, so about a quarter of em, and all poor ones in Asia, africa and central/South America) where FORTY PERCENT of people are under 15 years old. There are certainly a few who have about 50% under 25, i remember hearing. What that means for the future is that EVEN if (and this is unlikely) this next/my generation practise birth control to a much greater extent than their parents' generation, the world's and their countries' populations are not gonna stop growing, let alone decline, for some while yet. Also, 95% of all population growth is in LEDCs, and the USA is the only industrialized country in thr world in which large population increases are projected. (in case you don't know, the usual pattern is very small growth if any and if not decline in developed countries - Spain and greece and Italy and Russia are particularly in danger of having too few babies born to support the larger number of retired people which there are cos people are living for longer. ANYway, enough boring you guys with these facts, i'll go and revise in private i think. MM, demographic transition model. OOH - good quote from tonight's Holby City *<3s Abra et Elliot but not like that*: "You are a great surgeon i must admit it...but you have all the charm of a salt-encrusted slug *pleasant grin*" Hee hee...nevAR as good as the West Wing, my new TV Meme (whatever they are)Four jobs you have had: 1. Shop assistant :) Yay for cargo HomeShop 2. (work shadowing) BMS World Mission (YAY for Mark of Communications et al) 3. (work experience) Dressmakers...EVIL ppl in Oxford 4. (work experience) School office/primary school kids (awwww...) Four movies you would watch over and over: 1. Bruce Almighty (do not mock! great message) 2. The Truman Show (no, i am not a Jim carrey fan or summat, it's just a great concept for a film and very clever) 3. Shrek 2 :D I *AM* Princess Fiona - minus the green skin and karate kicks. 4. um...don't see that many films...Pride & prejudice? LOTR:ROTK Four places you have lived: 1. Beijing, China (i may have mentioned it in passing...) (well...lived there for 3 weeks, does that count as 'living'?) 2. Fulham, West London (i am indeed kinda a Londoner) 3. Royal Leamington Spa (YAY! W00t et <3), Warwks (shakespeare's county, not to mention the home of the Teletubbies!!!) 4. Umm...here in Sunny Didcot :D Four TV shows you love to watch: 1. ooh...the West Wing (just getting into the 7th series..i was BORN to see it. SANTOS FOR PRESIDENT!) 2. Holby City. Addictive! Predicable perhaps (i think it's required for each patient to have a traumatic personal problem e.g. affair that will inevitably be found out just after having major surgery...) but fun :) 3. The Simpsons - what can i say? 4. Have I got news for you Four places you have been on vacation: 1. Beijing, China (yay!) 2. Devon, numerous times 3. Edinburgh (it rained FOR THREE DAYS!) 4. Costa Blanca/la Comunidad Valenciana, España Four websites I visit daily: 1. LJ (well, almost daily) 2. Hotmail, for my emails 3. www.elmundo.com 4. www.thehungersite.com Four of my favorite foods: 1. Sweetcorn 2. Tomato pasta sauce :D 3. Blueberries (a recent favourite of mine) 4. Prawns Four people I am Tagging 1. Louisa 2. worldchanger 3. Jesus_rox_4eva, or whatever Jo is (can't do the little head thing before the names :() 4. Ummm...Liz_2_the_remix Four places I would rather be right now: 1. With...certain people... 2. In bed 3. Watching tv 4. Kitchen...:D May 26 Girls who like boys...My friend today questioned my taste in men. I don't mean, in case any of my more surreally-minded fellow bloggers (Will *ahem*), that she prefers them grilled to fried or whatever. But honestly. I don't think she's really in a position to say i ahve no taste in men considering she describes herself as asexual. Besides, if only she knew the whole story...heh. It's not just random drop-dead gorgeous guys in one's Geography class with a smile and ginger hair to die for. Oh no. But anyway, enough of that.
Look!
<u>My first quiz on this blog!<u>
(Thanks to Jo for bringing this to my attention)
1.Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with? No - i was 6 and he left school the year after that i think. 2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons? Lay them out to quote the lyrics of 'Ironic' by Alannis Morrisette (think about it...) 3. What kind of music did you listen to in primary school? Anything that was on the radio - i.e. 90s pop, rock, hip-hop, rap, early dance, acid house... S Club 7 and the Spice Girls featured heavily in years 6 and 3 respectively but i am proud to say not Boyzone, Take That or 4. What is the best thing about your job? Variety of tasks and the company of my colleagues. And the pic 'n' mix ;) 5. Do you think cell phones should be used in class? Not unless really necessary, e.g. calculator, camera... 6. Are you against same sex marriage? Yeah. 7. Do you want to be with someone now? Yes. In both senses. 8. Where are you going on your next vacation? St.Bees (yay!!! Ventures pwn) 10. Are most of the friends in your life new or old? New. Cos i moved house nearly 4 years ago and don't really keep in touch with (with good reason) my old classmates etc. And i didn't really begin to make a lot of my friends until up to a year ago. 11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea? No. Never been, alas. I'm reliably informed that the coke is very cheap... 13. If you could be an animal what would you be? Hmm....something that fly, i think. Or a dolphin/whale. 14. What country are you from? England. Great Britain. the Uk. Whatever you wanna call it. 15. Tell us about the last conversation/s you had? With my mother over an impending visit to the dentist...random. 16. Where do you see yourself in one month? Enjoying the sunshine (hopefully) and the freedom from exams at last!!! Preparing for the sixthform ball the next day :D 17. What is your favorite smell? Roses, blueberry, garlic or coffee. Those last two depend on my mood tho. 18. What is your favorite sight? Blue skies on a sunny day :D Or the arrivals lounge of Alicante airport... 19. Do you consider yourself bi-polar? Ummm...no. 21. Have you ever done anything vindictive to your co-worker? I don't have anything against any of my colleagues, thankfully, and if i did i don't think would, no. 22. Have you ever gone to therapy? Not yet...but some of my friends and their diary content may help me along (naming no names ZZ) 23. Have you ever Played Spin the bottle? Of course! Properly perhaps not (always too few willing boys to play/we could never bring ourselves to completely go for it...) 24. Have you ever Toilet papered someone's house? What the heck would that involve?!? (Apart from toilet paper, obv...) I'm intrigued... 25. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? Definitely. Too many times...once again, in both senses of like. I'm shy really. 26. Have you ever gone camping? Yep. Guides pwn! As does Soul Survivor come to think of it :) 27. Have you ever had a crush on your brother's/sister's friend? a) my sister ismuch to young for me to even think of liking her friends, b) she has very few male friends, c) i can think of better people to ogle... However, my first crush was on my friend's older brother...in the year above me. *rebel* 28. Have you ever been to a nude beach? Not as such... 29. Have you ever had sex on the beach? Never had sex so no and no! WHY would you wanna do that?! Hello, sand?!? (And i've not had the cocktail either ;-)) 30. Have you ever had a stalker? Not knowingly. I very much doubt it. 31. Have you ever gone skinny dipping? No! Well...when i was little we were visiting a Venture and my dad forgot my swimming costume/didn't know we'd need it so i had to go in a (paddling) pool naked...that was okay when i was about 4. 32. Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? I think so. Yes. Many times. 33. Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only sober person? Most probably. Or at least among about 5, if that, sober people. 34. Have you ever been cheated on? Not technically possible... 35. Have you ever felt betrayed by any of your friends? Yes. haven't we all? perhaps more than most. I never found out why either... 36. Have you ever lied to your parents? Yes. Again, haven't we all. I was a good liar when i was younger and not a Christian. 37. Have you ever been to the US? Nope. Wouldn't mind going to the Deep south, new orleans or New York. 38. Have you ever thrown up from working out? No! Working out? What, exercise??? ;-D 39. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for a month? Thankfully no. But i did wear a baseball cap for most of the time i spent in China. 40. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in 1 day? No! Twice in a day perhaps. 41. Have you ever gotten so wasted you cant remember the night before? Nope. Never drunk that much. 42. Have you ever spied on someone you had a crush on? Not too much... 43. Have you ever slept with one of your coworkers? 0.o No!!! There are only two options on that front, and just no!!! 44. Have you ever seen your best friend naked? Gonna get out of that one and say i've not had a best friend for 7 years (and Rupi wasn't that good a friend tbh). 45. Have you ever pee'd in the shower? Don't think so. (what's with that apostrophe, eh?) 46. Have you ever passed out during sex? No!!! again, technically impossible. 47. Have you ever listened to music 24 hours straight? No, but it sounds like a good experiment... 48. Have you ever spit on a roller coaster? Never been on a rollercoaster, and ewww, no i wouldn't. 49. Have you ever beaten up an animal? No! Well...spanish ants, spiders, daddylonglegs, and the odd slug *shudder*, but not really... 50. Have you ever farted and blamed it on a pet or someone else? Ew. Kinda, maybe, once or twice... 51. Have you ever made out with a picture or a model of a friend? I'm not Jo ;-) nor am i a boyband fan. Sorry to put you in the same boat there Jo... 52. Did you ever cheat on a test? Yes. I got caught and yelled at by my teacher once for cribbing in a test on the 8 times tables. I'll never forget my 8s... 53. Have you ever spit in someone else's food? No! 54. Have you ever sent a Valentines card to anyone other than your parents/sibling? Once.
Go on, join in, you know you want to! May 24 La entrevista...AAAAAAAAARRRRRRGH.
At least it's over with now. Is it bad that I was probs more nervous about this interview (for an admin assistant Girls' Brigade HQ, down t'road from me) than i have been about an exam? perhaps not. I've done precisely two job interviews in my life now and more exams that i care to count. Exams are practically normal for me now. Almost.
ANYway, shall be told on friday, and no point worrying.
Hee hee. The other one of my schools (sixth form spread across two sites, keep up) was Ofstedded today - the girls' school had it a while ago and was ok, so now there are a few oldish men wandering around with clipboards and suits and visitor's badges looking lost and thankfully not being verbally abused/splashed/heckled at/bumped into by small annoying soggy boys . I didn't even know there was an Ofsted til today when our teacher was a bit mroe tetchy than normal (until the guy came in and asked about our grades at AS and what bit of Sociology we were covering, when she was sweetness and light - not her usual self tbh). May 20 Everybody's changing and i don't feel the same...(gotta love Keane!)
Hmm. This is an odd time in my life, right now. As my little subject line says, everything and everybody is changing and it's just...weird. NOW i understand what anomie is like. I mean, let's go through exactly what is going on right now. Firstly, and most significantly considering my age and stuff, i will be leaving my school/sixthform and thereby full-time secondary education properly properly properly on Friday. This time next week, i will have had my last ever lesson EVER. That's no more homework, no more coursework, no more classrooms, no more school bus, no more teachers...you get the picture. If you're much older than me you might not remember what it's like, but bear in mind that I've spent more than 3/4 of my life as a student in school - the last 14 years nearly, so not having school there that i know i'll be going back to will be weird. I think it actually might be more life-changing that when i moved house nearly 4 years ago (was it really that long ago? So much has happened...i'm a completely different person to how i was then), cos that didn't feel too odd in a strange way. Well, until i had to sit around all summer and rebuild the underlying social structures that moulded my life like church and where i lived and my network of friends. Not to mention get over the loss of my old structure (even tho St. Paul’s is still standing and I still have my memories). In which case i guess it is a bit similar, since a really important part of that same structure will be gone, in a way. I'm not sure if I'm expressing myself clearly but there we go, when do i ever?
As if that wasn't enough, i'm gonna be leaving my job in July. Okay, so this particular component of the skeleton of my life isn't as old and established as school is, since i only started it under a year ago. But it’s one part of the structure nonetheless. I’m gonna miss the people. I’m gonna miss the building. I’m gonna miss the job. I’m gonna miss the commission! I’m gonna miss the random conversations with colleagues about children’s television programmes and nursery rhymes and sharing pic’n’mix. I might even miss the cardboard boxes, the egg slicers and the dust. Maybe. Having said all that, I both will and won’t miss the people, because there are about 4 of us that are leaving at some point (our boss left today, as the start of this whole chain of events), which in a small close-knit workplace like ours is gonna change the dynamics, so maybe it’s good that I’m leaving now so as to quit while I’m ahead, in a way. (hmm, I sense a Dr. Who school reunion parallel…)
Hmm. Something’s just occurred to me. Maybe I always prefer to look over the past and reminisce (see nostalgia update) to looking to the future (in a way, at least) because the past at least is certain and I have control over my memories. Maybe it’s just me coping with the uncertainty of the future and taking refuge in something I have control over. Isn’t that what they say anorexics and self-harmers do it for – to get a feeling of regaining control of their lives? (Holby City, I love you!) Well, I guess we all have our mental baggage. I think I might be charged extra for mine in some areas. (Blimey – maybe I should have taken psychology not sociology).
Anyway, that's enough about change with me. There are people i know who are undergoing much bigger changes around now. For instance, later today (technically today as of about half an hour ago) my fellow churchgoers/semi-friends Emily and David will be getting married and their lives are gonna be very different. Good luck to them and thank God for Soul Survivor, at least for their sakes ;-)
This reminds me of a lightbulb joke I’ve heard several times. I’m rather fond of both lightbulb jokes, the church and self-satire, so this is right up my street. Q: How many Anglicans does it take to change a lightbulb? A: Change?!?!? *horrified tone*
xRx May 12 There must be more than this...Wow.
I will never judge a book by its cover again. Or in fact its title.
Everyone must read 'An Alien at St. Wilfrid's' by Adrian Plass. It's BRILLIANT.
Hmm. It says a lot when it takes a non-fiction book to fulfill a deep spiritual need. Summer days, drifting away...I should never have allowed myself to get a debit card. Chip and pin machines are too tempting. I only got my new card last week and already I've spent about 50 quid. No es bueno. Unlike my new two-tone album in the Woolworths sale, and the gorgeous weather we've been having down in ol' Didcot town, which i think has sent my wonderfully nutty Sociology teacher over the edge. Today in the lesson he said he was just popping out to powder his nose. Mind you, working in the place that he does, i'd go mad - you'd be forgiven for thinking there was a visitor centre for a Roman battlefield next door, as they always seem to be re-enacting some great Civil War victory. Either that or SBS is offering GSCE Butchery...i'm sure they were bleating the other day. In other news, my A2 spanish oral has been and gone in a flash. Talk about racism in spanish football for 5 mins? Doddle. Next exam is 1 month away. Feel i should be slightly more worried than i am about my exams and their proximity - it's a strange feeling and i've had it all week. Somehow, in this weather tho (did i mention the fabulous royal blue skies and the mediterranean temperatures?) I just can't be bovvered, as my Vicki Pollard-soundalike work colleague says. Safe. --------------------------------------------------- Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm stranded in the wrong time where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme. Is it any wonder I'm tired? Is it any wonder that I feel uptight? Is it any wonder I don't know what's right? Oh, these days, after all the misery you made, Is it any wonder that I feel afraid? Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed? ------------------------------------------------- I'm gotta get through this I gotta get through this I gotta take my, take my mind off you May 02 Double DubyaHaving been all negative towards some Americans in my last post, i feel it would be churlish (although tempting - i'm not a fan of this man generally) not to mention this piece of news: http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/americas/4959380.stm The man knows how to play the media. Sorry. Cynical. Blame the Sociology. Todos somos inmigrantes, Señor ArbustoSeems a little out of character for me not to post about current affairs...
"Hundreds of thousands of immigrants in the United States have joined a day of nationwide action to protest against proposed immigration reform."
Good on them! Let's hope something from it will penetrate some of the more stubbon anti-immigration americans *cough* Governator. Idiots. After all, as the placards say, We are all Immigrants'.
"Everyone's an immigrant here. The only real American is the Indian," Puerto Rican-born Rene Ochart, a doorman in a Manhattan hotel, said of the campaign. Well exactly! It's just as true here in Britain, but there isn't even any group like the Native Americans who can claim to be racially pure British, cos as far as i know there ain't any pure Celts around. Hence why Michael Howard was talking rubbish at the last election, and rather ignorant, offensive, hypocritical, unsympathetic rubbish at that. Yes, of course asylum seekers are here to rob us all and murder our pets and children brutally. I mean, it's not like they're warned off violence by the civil wars and persecution they are fleeing or anything... I dunno. I just really wish these Minute men etc. would wake up and face facts, that spending more on patrolling the mexican border isn't gonna work. Like Matt Santos (i know he's fictional and all but i don't care, i wanna vote for him! Viva la West Wing!) said so brilliantly, there is no problem with the US border with Canada. It's not patrolled, yet nowhere near as many people try to cross it illegally as the other US land border to the south. Why? Cos Canada's not poor and full of unemployed workers. If the Mexican economy was like Canada's, there would be no problem with people risking death by dehydration to cross the desert into Arizona and California etc. Duh! No matter how high or strong you make the border, some people will still be desperate to try and cross it. On an unrelated note, i'd just like to mention how much i hate bra shopping. Or more specifically those stores who think that everyone has the same size chest. You know who you are, la Senza/Debenhams. Don't get me wrong, i like shopping as much as the next girl, but it is one very effective way to turn me from calm and relaxed to a tetchy stressed maniac. And then there's the Reading FC supporters who swamped the town like an explosion in a blue paint factory. So for the time being, i hate shopping. At least til ive earned back the money i frittered on overpriced accessories and the ugly memory of today's shopping trip has faded a little. Then i'll be back to Monsoon and Per Una, ready to make the same mistakes again. Hmm. Maybe Marxists are just disgruntled shoppers. Discuss. April 26 Is it just me......or is the news that John Prescott has had an affair with his younger secretary not what you wanna think about first thing in the morning? I mean, ewww... |
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